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Felony for Existing

by Felony for Existing

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1.
Take away our homes Take away our jobs Take away our meds Take away our kids Take our history In complicity Take away our lives Take everything We will still be here We will still be here We will still be here We will still be here
2.
We will still be here But survival isn’t enough We need to thrive A better world is possible For everyone Never give up the fight We will rebuild together Never give up the fight
3.
A Slip 00:25
Don’t blink A second you’ll see A flash in the pan A moment of your life Forever encapsulated Holding your hand The instance you get Is all you have the privilege for I keep myself a step away A family with attiitude A pile of matches on a tray A little slip is all it takes To overturn a single day Don’t you wish I was more like you? Stop biting off more than you can chew
4.
Ornamental suffering Shining spectral dream All they hear us say is “Look at me” Fashion myself a faggot A weapon against Your conformist fantasies
5.
Hate On 00:42
Life spent in the shadows of your norms of your dissatisfaction you can save your breath for someone else for anyone else i don't care i don't want to hear how you'll always love me i heard it all before and then you pushed me away it doesn't matter you'll say whatever you need to say to make yourself feel better your hatred gives me power your hatred gives me strength
6.
Imprisoned 00:48
carve the flesh from my bone make it an effigy all you’ll have left of the me you prefer to remember me fondly or whatever I don’t care what you think of my existence a felony my flesh is a prison my name is my chain my life is in flux my existence a crime undeserving of your god’s love I do not yearn for your god’s love i only wish to see your systems burn down with you inside tear down this prison join me in the cremation furnace burn motherfucker
7.
I can be your precious magnet For your partial rule-worship Retracting my hand In fear How do you make God laugh? You make a plan What could be lower Than lukewarm acceptance Resignation With no will to change "I'm different now" I never said that I was brave
8.
Just beyond your senses the dead and playful are wriggling out from under your covers Slick with cum and carmine By a thread the hanging Earth grows darker still and Memory - pearlescent holds its intrigue New thoughts fatigue and I can no longer even imagine a safer world Rudiments of care machinery of renewal whirrs into action always too late
9.
The moments between the pain of this change, in the beauty of it's discoveries that constantly lay before me there are those times when I think I can take one second more. Tie me to the ground and I'll stay. Feeling left behind for a second time and wondering what that means when I say I can't take one second more. Tie me to this place. To this ground.
10.
Ariamis 00:42
Dreaming of a painted world The place that we swore to reunite Left powerless by what was meant to be And in a vague way I cut myself in two Both impractically and in vain A failed resurrection of moments in memory The buried weight in my chest hollows
11.
Instead 00:39
Cut my teeth on teeth filled these bones with saw dust choked myself on hope a continued existence as an act of resistance in a world that wants you dead just living is defiance instead of succumbing to depression killing myself i'll simply be no one gets to decide for me when this ends i'll keep living instead of
12.
Balans 00:47
undefined mutable energy flowing inside energy mutable, not unstable chameleon with integrity fluid and certain strength in antagonism home in truth safe within balance found home in truth safe within balance found
13.
What does it mean to be happy? Things I thought I knew when I was young In the end I will die In the end I will be In the end I will die In the end I will be more than a thought; I will live on In the end I will die In the end I will be In the end I will die In the end I will be Peace be still for a while I will be happy Peace be still for a while
14.
Tweez 00:15
Pulling at the threads Routine with no success
15.
Be Seen 00:28
Cry out Reach out Whatever you need I'm here This is for you My invisible friend May you always be seen
16.
Pressed right against my head You’d rather leave me dead Then give me tools To make my own home You take my arms and break my bones Where is the light? Where is the respite? I’ve lost everything but hope
17.
Does it matter anyway? Putting my guts back into my frame Does it matter anyway? As I keep pushing on Does it matter anyway? Even now? Damaged goods, is all that's left Damaged remains, yet I move on For theres no other way out, of this mess that I have made
18.
Feed On You 00:38
It's that time of year again throw the colour everywhere market research shows we're suckers for an empty pledge but I'm sickened I'm laughing so tired and sickened now we feed upon you
19.
Blisters 00:41
Worthless skin and bones big ears big nose having gangly ass freak Blisters in the space that I hold for my own perception of what beauty feels like when I look in the mirror
20.
you "normal", plot to enslave, identity for sale. nuclear family, trapped in the white walls. bent to the whims of growth, too powerful to fail. cisgender is capitalist, cancer of the world. save the planet, launch a TERF into the sun. burn a comedian at the stake. bow down to your trans goddess. I will slaughter you and build a better earth on your ashes.
21.
Accord 00:26
sign this contract with my blood we give the devil his due to satisfy this rotten flame of ambition briars wave a punishing crown jagged idol falls to the ground
22.
i can't even stand the sight of myself anymore i dont know where all these fucking cuts came from all these goddamn bruises but one thing i know i will never be what you wanted i will always be what i needed you can never undo this you gave me the tools to end this
23.
Necrosis 00:24
Necrosis take my flesh Derelict corpse for rent Watch me pulsate Blood feast, prophet My hands are calloused, bound to my losses but what's left to lose when your future is shackled?
24.
Bled out on the concrete fear and intimidation do it's best to force standards on you and worry that the only mark you'll make is as a cautionary tale no more it's time we got to live
25.
save yourself twisted bones snap like twigs comfort closet misspent tokens honored placement, process, progress futile accords everyday your soul will flay when you see my face i dont know me i dont trust myself
26.
We will still be here We will still be here For our future We will still be here We will still be here For our future For ourselves
27.
For the future For our dead For the future For ourselves

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Michaela McLaughlin - Drums
Edie Quinn - Guitars/Bass

Vocals
1. Aeryn Santillan
2. Aeryn Santillan
3. Wes Meadows
4. Mace Guzman
5. Edie Quinn
6. Dean Scordilis
7. Ryann Slauson, Harim Jung
8. Kai Van Vlack
9. Edie Quinn
10. Jaccob Hanley
11. Edie Quinn
12. Dani Teeth
13. Eve Beeker
14. Adam
15. Edie Quinn
16. Ultra Deluxe
17. Tara Stapleton
18. Edie Quinn
19. Edie Quinn
20. Aki McCullough
21. Allen Serafini
22. Josephine Howitzer
23. Jane Cadogan
24. Edie Quinn
25. Kevin Henson
26. Aeryn Santillan, Edie Quinn
27. Aeryn Santillan

Synth on 1, 16, 27 by Otto Klammer
Drums on 1, 27 by Edie Quinn

Cover art by Edie Quinn

Instruments and vocals recorded by their respective performers.
Mixed and mastered by Edie Quinn at Yoguwit Studios.

This project is composed of entirely trans and/or non binary people.

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released June 25, 2022

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