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1.
Calloused and rough be a stone workers hands and yet you held us so softly. I find it curious to think of the man you were before me, or to spend all the years with the man who raised me, and now to be here with the man that I see before me. I dreamt your health was returning. You looked as strong as if it was from all the pictures of my youth. I’m so scared to see you now and I’m going to feel myself with regret if I do nothing. I don’t want to feel you so frail. I don’t want to see you so pail. Blood on your face, tears in my eyes, and you didn’t know who I was. I love your story.
2.
Bare your teeth and hold on to one another. We no longer have guardians. They were buried a long time ago. Should I have hope for their return? I praise you survivors…Stay strong single mothers… Scream and cry, all those angered… You cannot curse our bodies… We’re done with rape culture… And we won’t stop with racist. Now it’s you and me, it’s us for us. Structure no longer meant to house or hold. Meant as monuments to assign the big and the small. With this, our current life, we’ll be our protection.
3.
It seemed to all start out so romanticized and I have to admit I fell for it too. How would anyone think that life changing moments could just follow suit. Oh yes, what mild timing. Oh yes, you tried to stay strong. Oh yes, how you had to leave. Oh yes, cut free from this dead place. I remember the bottles followed by smiles and laughs. How we used to glorify the time we would share. I remember the wedding vows and when I spoke up to congratulate. Now your finger is bare and you’ll have a memory. I know you’re strong enough not to be consumed by fear.
4.
How is it possible for such a cracked and simple structure to have house so much love? From room to room my life was made better in those short 6 years. Do you remember the time we all dressed up, we laughed and took photos in the hallway? And how many times did we sit on the front porch to discuss life and drink until dawn. I’ll always feel warm when I think how many friends gathered near that big red wall. I can never forget the night that Jameson decided to break the George Forman grill. How is it possible for such a cracked and simple structure to have house so much love? From room to room my life was made better in those short 6 years. There was that one night when all the snow fell so went out to have a fight. I am so grateful for all the floor space we made to share with our traveling friends. I have to smile at Dogchild’s last night, and how we danced and I stood on his feet. Now I must thank all the friends that lived there and spent the best times with me. It truly broke my heart when I knew it was coming to an end. I held off as long as I could and those last nights, cleaning an empty home, crushed me. Life has a way of moving forward but I’ll never forget what I had here.
5.
No one should raise a hand towards you. To leave you without care is a crime. Yet, it happens all the time. I’m so sorry you’ve been met with abuse and hate. It is not your fault. You’ve done nothing wrong and just because you different doesn’t mean you’re not as valuable. Life is cruel but lessons shouldn’t be learned so early on. I know you’re hurt, I know you’re angry, I know you can’t trust, I know you’ve been traumatized. I’ll do my best to be there and help you. I hope you find some comfort as you grow. I need you to know that you were never alone. I've always been right here watching you grow and I've loved you through all of it. Forces pull at invisible threads but I know we can stitch them back together. -s
6.
When a wound is not properly taken care of it becomes infected and fills the body with toxins. I never thought you’d be my wound. A vicious cycle began to form in the home I loved. You formed a sickness that brought forth a plague. I had to cast you out. I couldn’t live like that. Fire was laid in the hallways and began to choke us out. With you gone we could breath. I’m sorry your path went the way it did. That you had to learn things the hard way. I hope you find safety and happiness.
7.
Friendship is curious thing. Time moves forward and so often we never notice. Days, to weeks, to months, to years. It’s beautiful to know the simplest conversations could bring people closer together. I’m glad we meet and I can only hope to make more friendships like this. Thanks for spending all that time talking to a kid about music. Breathe in, take me, let me go far from here. Hold me, lift me into the air and watch me to make sure I have the strength to hold on because I wasn't sure how far I had to climb and what I would have to do all I'd have to face to become who I am now. -s
8.
I remember when I was younger and the way I used to few the world. I don’t know what it was that changed in me. I don’t know if it was the way I looked at others or the way I view myself. I know somewhere down the line I began to drift off and found it more important to try and seek the pleasures of the flesh. I know sex seemed to mean a lot to me and making connections seemed less important. But I also noticed it wasn’t just me. It seemed that relationships we not necessary. It’s not wrong to live this way but I wonder is it right for me? How many times must I apologize for foolish moments? I know I’ve hurt feelings. I hope I learn with age to love like the child I once was. To know why and what I’m afraid to say and the longer we stray from the light.

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